Allow me to introduce myself. I AM THE DISEASE OF ALCOHOLISM!

I am cunning, baffling and powerful. That's me. I have killed millions, and I am pleased. I love to catch you with the element of surprise. I love pretending I am your friend or lover. I have given you comforted, have I not?

Wasn't I there when you were lonely?

When you wanted to die, didn't you call me? I was there. I love to make you hurt. I love it when I make you so numb you can neither hurt nor cry.

When you can't feel anything at all, this is true gratification. All I ask of you is long term suffering. I've always been there for you. When things were going right in your life, you invited me. You said you didn't deserve these good things and I was the only one who would agree with you.

Together we were able to destroy all things good in your life all I asked of you was long-term suffering.

People don't take me seriously. They take strokes seriously, heart attacks, even diabetes they take seriously. Fools! Without my help these things would not be made possible. I am such a hated disease and yet, I do not come uninvited. You choose to have me.

So many have chosen me over reality and peace.

More than you hate me, I hate all of you . You who have a 12 step program. Your program, your meetings, your Higher Power. All these things weaken me and I can't function in the manner I am accustomed to.

Now I must lie here quietly. You don't see me, but I am growing bigger than ever. WHEN YOU ONLY EXIST, I MAY LIVE. WHEN YOU LIVE, I ONLY RXIST. BUT I AM HERE… UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, IF WE MEET AGAIN, I WISH YOU CONTINUED DEATH AND SUFFERING.

I AM YOUR DISEASE.